Four years ago in june my dad wrote me a letter that was given to me at laura light camp. last week i lost my covenant ring and in searching for it i came across this letter i thought i had gotten rid of it.
i would like to share this letter with you all its defiantly from my dad. the person that ask him to right this letter the point was to show our strong points and remind us that we are important.
he starts off the letter with
Hello Sarah-
well you are a challenging person, and thats for sure. You always have a strong opinion on most all things!
you are a good worker and have a lot of self drive. It has always been difficult to get you to change your mind. once you have decided on a course of action all I have been able to do is make suggestions! A very strong willed person you are sarah!
you like pink, and color by numbers art work. oh yes! Big fuzzy house shoes are something you like.
Hillary Duff movies are all around the house (your favorite)!
i would say that you are a very nice young lady who enjoys life and can be a lot of fun to be around, but you need friends who will stand up to you and let you know what they need and expect from you!
and some day when you find that right man in your life?... He needs to be a strong and understanding man, who will listen to your needs and allow you the space you need, to be part of his. Thats in the Bible!
when other girls are painting there bedrooms pink and pastel with little red hearts all over, you paint yours orange with yellow flowers and green trim.
Go get them sarah!
your DAd
he put his little smiley face at the end.
it always amazed me that even though my dad had 10 kids he knew how to make each and everyone of us special to him and all of us to have our own time together.
I miss you everyday Dad.
i cant believe its only been a year sometimes its seems like forever sense you have been gone.
love you
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Rant!!
sorry guys but i need to vent for a little bit. This past year has been a crazy adventure for me. sense january 2010 i have gone from dating to engaged to calling off the engagement. i went from two parents to one parent living. i have moved from minnesota to utah back to minnesota and i am planing on moving back to utah once more.
today i had a mental break down thinking about all those things and i reliesed sometimes i wish i could control my life and everything that happens to that it would all be happy and have no sad sides. but then i also thought without the sad and the lonely how can you have they happy.
the past few months have had there ups and downs this last month mostly being downs but it has had great benefits to it as well. I have found who is really supportive of me and who isn't have have found out who i really have to lean on to get the right answers.
as for now im spending a lot of time preparing and planing my trip back to utah. however i cant control the weather that week, i cant control wether my car will make it or not but if i pray and believe i can make it i know in my heart that heavenly father would never put me in a place that i cant get out of.
I know this post is really random but i have had a lot of things running through my head today and i cant handle it so i decided i needed to get a few out.
today i had a mental break down thinking about all those things and i reliesed sometimes i wish i could control my life and everything that happens to that it would all be happy and have no sad sides. but then i also thought without the sad and the lonely how can you have they happy.
the past few months have had there ups and downs this last month mostly being downs but it has had great benefits to it as well. I have found who is really supportive of me and who isn't have have found out who i really have to lean on to get the right answers.
as for now im spending a lot of time preparing and planing my trip back to utah. however i cant control the weather that week, i cant control wether my car will make it or not but if i pray and believe i can make it i know in my heart that heavenly father would never put me in a place that i cant get out of.
I know this post is really random but i have had a lot of things running through my head today and i cant handle it so i decided i needed to get a few out.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
My Thoughts on Life in the moment...
Sense visiting home in January I have noticed a few things that I didn't like about being in Minnesota. The biggest one is not having friends that are closer to my age. I have also more recently struggled with home sickness yet again I don’t know if growing up if you ever completely get away from being homesick.
as most of you know not very long after coming back in January i decided that i was going to stick it out until after tax season and then i was going to move on and find a new nanny job. Well starting the end of February i started looking and applying for jobs.
i guess i should have talked to Michele about this because she found out through a friend that I was planning on leaving which is not the way I wanted her to find out. Then the fun began it started out with my Michele just being a little angry and not really talking to me, then it came to a point where i have two families interested and want to meet me in person so i went and talked to Michele about it she said that they could work something out and would try and be supportive of me. so I told the families just that, One of the families gave me exact dates to come and see them so I went back to Michele with those dates and she said ok we will work something out. Twenty minutes later she texted me telling me that she didn't want me going.
After that I emailed her an email and I thought I was pretty nice for how angry I was with her saying that I was going to take the interview and that I was only asking for a few days its not like the end of the world. She didn't like being put back in her place I guess because her and Brian came and talked to me about it. She told me I was very childish with how I approached and handled the situation and that I need to grow up.
Then she went off on a rampage about how angry she was with me and stated that she would just fire me but she is so busy at work that she couldn't handle not having a nanny. She also said that she had plenty of girls waiting to replace me. Then she went off to say how I needed to apologies for what I did. I don’t feel sorry for the way I acted I thought I handled it and treated her just as equal as she treated me.
I was not going to let her treat me like her two-year-old daughter. I’m sorry I’m an adult I will apologize if I feel the need to.
Any way after that little endeavor I started praying about the situation and trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be learning out of this whole thing.
The answer I feel I finally received was this, If you don’t lean on heavenly father to make your decisions you tend to make situations harder for yourself.
For instance I never prayed about the job that I ask time off for I just felt like it was a good opportunity. Which is why after putting myself through this whole situation and getting my employers mad at me, loosing my one and only nanny reference.
Nothing worked out until I prayed about it.
I honestly can say that after praying and feeling the pull towards home I really need to be there. Something about being closer to friends and family is very important.
So after this huge long rant I guess what im asking for is prayers from all of you to please pray that I will find a job, that I am doing the right thing for everyone.
as of right now im resigning as a nanny for now. moving back to utah hoping to find a job, get into school and learn that im happy there and not farther away. it ver important that i feel like i need to get away you all remind me of this because i know now that the best place for me is closer to home.
as most of you know not very long after coming back in January i decided that i was going to stick it out until after tax season and then i was going to move on and find a new nanny job. Well starting the end of February i started looking and applying for jobs.
i guess i should have talked to Michele about this because she found out through a friend that I was planning on leaving which is not the way I wanted her to find out. Then the fun began it started out with my Michele just being a little angry and not really talking to me, then it came to a point where i have two families interested and want to meet me in person so i went and talked to Michele about it she said that they could work something out and would try and be supportive of me. so I told the families just that, One of the families gave me exact dates to come and see them so I went back to Michele with those dates and she said ok we will work something out. Twenty minutes later she texted me telling me that she didn't want me going.
After that I emailed her an email and I thought I was pretty nice for how angry I was with her saying that I was going to take the interview and that I was only asking for a few days its not like the end of the world. She didn't like being put back in her place I guess because her and Brian came and talked to me about it. She told me I was very childish with how I approached and handled the situation and that I need to grow up.
Then she went off on a rampage about how angry she was with me and stated that she would just fire me but she is so busy at work that she couldn't handle not having a nanny. She also said that she had plenty of girls waiting to replace me. Then she went off to say how I needed to apologies for what I did. I don’t feel sorry for the way I acted I thought I handled it and treated her just as equal as she treated me.
I was not going to let her treat me like her two-year-old daughter. I’m sorry I’m an adult I will apologize if I feel the need to.
Any way after that little endeavor I started praying about the situation and trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be learning out of this whole thing.
The answer I feel I finally received was this, If you don’t lean on heavenly father to make your decisions you tend to make situations harder for yourself.
For instance I never prayed about the job that I ask time off for I just felt like it was a good opportunity. Which is why after putting myself through this whole situation and getting my employers mad at me, loosing my one and only nanny reference.
Nothing worked out until I prayed about it.
I honestly can say that after praying and feeling the pull towards home I really need to be there. Something about being closer to friends and family is very important.
So after this huge long rant I guess what im asking for is prayers from all of you to please pray that I will find a job, that I am doing the right thing for everyone.
as of right now im resigning as a nanny for now. moving back to utah hoping to find a job, get into school and learn that im happy there and not farther away. it ver important that i feel like i need to get away you all remind me of this because i know now that the best place for me is closer to home.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The Frozen Tundra
so i have promised a few of you that i would get on here and post some pictures of the lake and ice fishing. well i have not been ice fishing but a few weeks ago we went to the lake i will share some pictures with you of that.
and For those of you that have seen the movie Grumpy Old Men its totally like that out on the lake as you can see. the pictures here is one of many collections of fish houses some permanent some mobile
hope you enjoyed
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Christmas
As most of you know i work as a nanny in minnesota while going to school to become a photographer. well the family i work for goes to florida for Christmas. So as we where opening gifts this morning i thought to myself. what does the word christmas mean to me? after that a few more questions came to mind like what is my favorite christmas pastime? what is my favorite christmas book? whats my favorite christmas gift i ever received or gave? what is my favorite christmas memory? and you know i probably could answer all of these with a simple i dont know but if i really think about it i can answer all of these questions.
1. favorite christmas pastime.
I think my favorite Christmas pastime well was in the past the advent calander and wreath. for those that dont know what that is. its a wreath that has 4 candles each meaning a different thing about christ. and for me i never really understood all of the meanings but it was always family time when i was a kid. each night for the four weeks before christmas we would get together and have a story and christmas carols. i have lots of memorys from this but the one that always comes back is What child is this. my older brother would always pick this hymn because in the second verse you get to say a swear word and mom wouldnt get mad.
2. my favorite christmas book. This one is kind of hard because there are so many that i like. but i think the one that i remember the most is papa panoff.(im not sure if that is spelled correctly) it was my dads favorite and every year on christmas eve he read it to us as kids.
3. favorite gift received and given.
I think that my favorite gift received this year would be my winter cloths i couldnt afford them but michele and brian bought them for me which is a huge blessing. i think my favorite gift i have ever got was my Oboe. My mom and dad shopped for a long time to find the perfect one for me even though at the time they couldnt really afford it they knew that it was what i wanted and they wanted the best one for me.
my favorite gift i have ever given someone this one is tough because i give so many gifts i cant really remember them all. but i think that the best christmas gift that i have given is My love and i know thats not really anything special to everyone and it sounds conseded but really i belive that the best gifts come from the heart and what better to give anyone but the love of my heart.
4. Favorite Christmas memory wow i have 21 years of christmas's to go through i dont think i can pick just one but here are a few.
I remember as a kid my parents had to put up a baby gate to keep us out of the tree. although decorating the tree was always a fun time and very precious to me.
i also remember as a kid decorating Gingerbread houses that was always a good time.The competition when there is 10 kids between who's is better is always fun.
every year for christmas as far back as i can remember my oldest sister Gabi bought my dad gouda cheese, beef stick (summer sausage), and wheat thins. it was one of my favorites to share that with him. he always made jokes about that.
When we where kids we would make gifts for out god parents every year it was great fun to deliver those.
then there is the anticipation on christmas eve of santa coming i always got so excited i threw up at least once.
then you know when your a kid you get so excited that you wake up at the crack of dawn well my mom always told us we couldnt come up until she said it was ok. so my dad would come downstairs and read us stories.
yeah i think that about sums up all my memorys.
What christmas means to me.
Christmas is one of my favorite times of year normally this year has been a bit different but christmas really means to me. its a time for showing love, kindness, charity, and lots and lots of family time.
well i hope you like this post. I hope it helps you think of what christmas means to you.
1. favorite christmas pastime.
I think my favorite Christmas pastime well was in the past the advent calander and wreath. for those that dont know what that is. its a wreath that has 4 candles each meaning a different thing about christ. and for me i never really understood all of the meanings but it was always family time when i was a kid. each night for the four weeks before christmas we would get together and have a story and christmas carols. i have lots of memorys from this but the one that always comes back is What child is this. my older brother would always pick this hymn because in the second verse you get to say a swear word and mom wouldnt get mad.
2. my favorite christmas book. This one is kind of hard because there are so many that i like. but i think the one that i remember the most is papa panoff.(im not sure if that is spelled correctly) it was my dads favorite and every year on christmas eve he read it to us as kids.
3. favorite gift received and given.
I think that my favorite gift received this year would be my winter cloths i couldnt afford them but michele and brian bought them for me which is a huge blessing. i think my favorite gift i have ever got was my Oboe. My mom and dad shopped for a long time to find the perfect one for me even though at the time they couldnt really afford it they knew that it was what i wanted and they wanted the best one for me.
my favorite gift i have ever given someone this one is tough because i give so many gifts i cant really remember them all. but i think that the best christmas gift that i have given is My love and i know thats not really anything special to everyone and it sounds conseded but really i belive that the best gifts come from the heart and what better to give anyone but the love of my heart.
4. Favorite Christmas memory wow i have 21 years of christmas's to go through i dont think i can pick just one but here are a few.
I remember as a kid my parents had to put up a baby gate to keep us out of the tree. although decorating the tree was always a fun time and very precious to me.
i also remember as a kid decorating Gingerbread houses that was always a good time.The competition when there is 10 kids between who's is better is always fun.
every year for christmas as far back as i can remember my oldest sister Gabi bought my dad gouda cheese, beef stick (summer sausage), and wheat thins. it was one of my favorites to share that with him. he always made jokes about that.
When we where kids we would make gifts for out god parents every year it was great fun to deliver those.
then there is the anticipation on christmas eve of santa coming i always got so excited i threw up at least once.
then you know when your a kid you get so excited that you wake up at the crack of dawn well my mom always told us we couldnt come up until she said it was ok. so my dad would come downstairs and read us stories.
yeah i think that about sums up all my memorys.
What christmas means to me.
Christmas is one of my favorite times of year normally this year has been a bit different but christmas really means to me. its a time for showing love, kindness, charity, and lots and lots of family time.
well i hope you like this post. I hope it helps you think of what christmas means to you.
Friday, December 17, 2010
The year 2010 in one post.
OK so i have been reading other peoples blogs and they are all posting things that they have learned or experienced this year and i thought i would give you my year in a nut shell. 2010 started off pretty rocky for me I started the year in Florida with Brian and Michele where i then told them on January 1st of all days that i was going to no longer work for them and that i needed to go home. at this time i was leaving them to be with a man named Joshua pierce. i flew home on January 11Th 2010 and lived with my sister had no job because i was going to marry this man who told me he was rich. well then February came after getting engaged on February 13th,
life seemed to be great and nothing wrong i had just got my job back at shopko and i was living the high life.
then the end of march came my dad got really sick he ended up in the hospital and six days later on April 7th 2010 my dad passed away. he was my hero and i never thought i would have to live without him to call and answer my stupid questions about my car, or about my history assignments.
on April 11th 2010 i called off my engagement and broke up with the man who i thought was the one. sense then most of you know that he defiantly was not!
after that i thought my world was over i had no reason to be around i couldn't focus on school or work or anything.
i thought things couldn't possibly get any worse.
well things started to get better in may and June. but then June 21st came and my Nana passed away. which was very heart breaking she was a great Nana.
after attending the second funeral for the year i decided it was time for me to start looking for jobs outside of Brigham city i could just no longer see where my life was going to get any better.
July passed, then august and i had still not found anything or heard back from anyone.
i then decided that maybe i was supposed to stay in Utah and stick it out. so i started getting more comfortable with everything. for labor day weekend my mom wanted to go see my grandma so we drove up to Boise Idaho. which is not my favorite place because on the way there i got my first speeding ticket. while i was there the last person in the world i ever thought i would hear from again emails me. it was Michele and Brian they wanted me to come back and work for them.
on September 15, 2010 i flew back out to Minnesota. my life has gotten better sense then i feel like i have purpose again.
October was warm and we didn't see any snow, November came we still hadn't seen any snow and then Thanksgiving came Michele had just reached the 18 week mark in her pregnancy and we thought she would carry the baby to full term. we drove to Nebraska on November 21st she ended up delivering the baby at 18 1/2 weeks pregnant. They had a little boy named him Jakob. so after attending 3 funerals, loosing one fiance, a speeding ticket and moving three times. i am very glad this year is winding down to the end. I am hoping for a great and happy year in 2011.
but through all this i have learned to be humble and loving, that life can go on after loosing a loved one even though you think about them everyday. i have also learned that leaning on my family for everything is not really necessary but its nice to know they are there when you really need them. i have learned who my friends are and who aren't. My testimony of the gosspil has only gotten stronger and my love for my heavenly father has grown even more.
Wishing you all a Merry Christmas!! and a Happy New Year!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Skating
so for the last two months we have been taking ky skating she started out not even being able to balance on the ice but now i can hardly keep up with her she is so cute while she is out there.
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