birthdays

well yesterday was my birthday. nothing really exciting i guess. i think as you get older the less important birthdays are for instance last year i was mad that i had to work all day and not get to do anything for my birthday. so this year same thing but i was not mad at all. i got one phone call and a bunch of birthday wishes and that was it. thanks everyone.
i am now the BIG 21and there is nothing really exciting about it so far.

THE NANNY MOBILE!!

well just to inform you all about my exciting adventure in minnesota so far. yesterday i went out and bought a newish car. i mean its 19 years old you cant really call it new. i have taken a few pictures of it some not so great but i hope you enjoy.

this is the outside.


here is the inside as you can see Kyliegh has marked her territory already.



ok i forgot to tell you this car is so old it has a tape player.
the next few are me trying to be artistic and they turn out ok.

About me

~Basic Info~
Name::	Sarah Kathleen
Age::	20
Height::	5' 8"
Hair Color::	Dark Blond
Eye Color::	Hazel
Religion::	LDS (morman)
Ethnicity::	american
Orientation::	Straight
Status::	Single
~Favorites~
Color?:	Hot Pink
Hair Style?:	Awesome
Food?:	Italian
Soda?:	Dr. pepper, or Mountain Dew
Alchoholic Beverage?:	Don't drink
Store?:	Shopko of course
Mall?:	Any as long as they have maurices and vanity
State?:	Florida or Illinois
City?:	Brigham city
Animal?:	Dog
Movie?:	Hairspray
TV Show?:	The Secret life
Book?:	The covenant Child
Music?:	Pop
Song?:	California gurls
Band/Artist?:	katy perry
Website?:	facebook.com
~This or That~
Soda or Juice?:	soda
Music or Internet?:	Internet. just because my school is on there
Rock or Rap?:	Rock – rap
Dogs or Cats?:	dog
White or Black?:	white
Myspace or Bebo?:	facebook
Cell Phone or I-pod?:	both
Curly Hair or Straight Hair?:	Straight hair
Lap-Top or Computer?:	lap top
Corded Phone or Cordless?:	Cordless
Mountain Dew or Pepsi?:	Mountain Dew
Pen or Pencil?:	Pencil
MP3 Player or I-pod?:	iPod
Single or Taken?:	Single
School or Work?:	both
~Random~
What do you do on your spare time?:	school
What do you wish you had more time for?:	everything
Whats your usual clothing style?:	casual
Whats your usual hair style?:	straight
What are you wearing?:	shorts and a t-shirt
Who would you die for?:	friends, family, anyone i love
Whos your best friend?:	my sister
How long have you been friends?:	sense i was born
How did you and your best friend meet?:	im guessing when i was born in the hospital
Do you have any pets?:	no but my family has 3 dogs and 3 cats and a one legged bird names chester
Do you plan on getting married?:	someday
Do you plan on having kids?:	hopefully
If so, how many?:	2 or 3
How old did you wish you were?:	i like the age i am i dont wish to be any younger
If you were to be anywhere right now, where would you be?:	the bahamas enjoying the sunshine
Why?:	because i love it there
Ever gone Camping?:	Yea who hasnt
Have you ever caught a fish and ate it?:	yes then i cooked it and ate it
Have you ever gone water skiing?:	yes
Have you ever gone water tubing?:	yes
Have you ever gone skiing on a mountain?:	No
Have you ever gone tubing on a mountain?:	yes
Have you ever gone Snowboarding?:	no
Ever gone to church?:	every sunday
Ever gone to a famous water park?:	Atlantis resort in the bahamas, or The worlds largest indoor water park
Ever gone out of State?:	yeah lots of times
Ever gone out of the country?:	yup
When was the last time you left town?:	yesterday
Anything you got planned for this weekend?:	nope just working and homework
Is this survey curing your bordom?:	nope not really
Do you resemble anyone famous?:	no
Are you related to anyone famous?:	not that i know of
Do you think your hott?:	of course i am just look at me
Do other people think your hott?:	why dont you take a survey on it and let me know
Do you think your skinny?:	i am neither skinny nor fat i like me for who i am
What year were you born in?:	1989
Ever been on a blind date?:	yes
What do you enjoy doing when your bored?:	watching a movie, or reading
What do you do in the summer time?:	swimming, camping, 4 wheeling, boating.
Are you naturally tanned?:	No
Or are you kinda pale?:	Yeah..
Do you live in a house?:	Yeah

just an update

so Friday morning i had my wisdom teeth surgically removed. other than him putting the needle in me to put me to sleep i don't remember much of Friday. Saturday i slept most the day i think i probably was awake for four hours if that all day on Saturday. now today is Sunday i officially look like a chipmunk. the pain has not really died down much yet i hope it does soon. other than that nothing to exciting happening.

ugh!!!

i just don't get it. i thought life was supposed to be easy. why is it that i never get a break? the times i feel like i am getting a break is when i am at work is that sad. i mean isn't being at home supposed to be relaxing. instead i am up late at night hoping that no one knocks on my door asking whats for dinner or who's job it is to cook it. it is ridiculous yeah i don't mind grocery shopping but it has to be done every week and sometimes i cant do it exactly seven days apart. I'm sorry i am a real adult that has a job. not only that but then they all come at me angry because the food that was supposed to last until Wednesday is gone.
i know this post just seems so negative but I'm tired of feeling like I'm not important to anyone until it comes time to eat again.
or when she needs a ride to the doctor or the post office and heaven forbid she miss any of those visits.
and on top of all this stress in my life i have to add me trying to have a life outside of the family. i love you guys but i don't have any friends i think its time that i have other things to do than work, school, grocery shopping and cooking for the family.
and on top of that i am having my wisdom teeth pulled on Friday and i am not excited its going to hurt I'm scared and don't really want to do it even though it needs to be done. but i guess its better now than later when they hurts more.
other than my overly stressed level of stress i have nothing else exciting is happening. but i have to add in i have decided that fathers day is defiantly my least favorite holiday so far this year even though Easter pretty much sucked to.
peace yo!

What should i do

So i am going to write this to ask your opinion. i am kind of at a cross roads as you could call it in my life right now where i need to decided weather to keep looking for a nanny job or stick it out here at shopko. i love working with everyone at shopko but the pay sucks. and as far as nanny jobs go i have been looking for two months now and have found a few family's but they decided to hire someone else. so in you guys opinion which do yo think would be better for me to do?
love you all
Sarah

Im just not ready

as some of you know im not handling my dad being gone as well as i probably could or even as well as i let on. today they started cleaning my moms room and throwing his stuff away. im not ready its so hard to watch every little thing that he had and all the little memories have to be thrown away. some days i never know if i will be ready to say goodbye its not fair that i have to. i want to just walk away from it all i wish i could. but every memory with my family i have has him in it.
it seems like my mom could care less that she is just so ready to get rid of everything that was his but some of it hold strong memories for me. its never fair to have to say goodbye i know but i was not ready and i dont think i ever will be. he was my dad, my hero, and sometimes he was my life. he always knew how to make me smile when i was down. he was always willing to rub my shoulder or scratch my back when it was itchy. no matter what the situation i was going through he knew how to fix it. why did you have to leave now. i wish that i was better at expressing myself to the right people that would help but its hard to talk out loud to people about it. but who are the right people that could help. nothing can bring my dad back he is gone. everyone ask me what wrong what wrong. don't you think you should know i lost my dad, and the man i thought was my best friend all within a week of eachother you really expect me one month later to just act like it never happend. i have night mares while im sleeping and so i cant sleep because im scared to. then they expect me to beable to talk about it with them i dont even know how to put it into words in my own head.
the bottom line is I MISS MY DADDY!